a paradigm shift

I think I have figured something out. This has come to me as a result of my meeting with the bishop the other day. It's pretty huge: I believe I have to work on turning my thinking in a different direction--a paradigm shift.

As I look back, I am seeing that, for most of my life, my modus operandi has been founded on pride and arrogance. In essence, my way was THE way to do things. I think my attitude was, "OK, here's my idea...let's do it this way and here's how we should do it". I did this even with God. I am GREAT at begging. Ask anyone who volunteers at the center or the people to whom I go to help me with clients' financial needs. I may have a sweet way to beg that gets everyone on board with me but this is not really very good when it comes to doing God's Will.

From now on, my attitude and prayer are going to be, "Lord, I come to do YOUR Will, not mine." And, I am going to try very hard to mean it. After all, there is no room for pride or arrogance on the road to the Kingdom. Naturally, reforming my prideful ways will not be easy but I'm going to try very hard to do it. With God's grace, I will succeed.

It will be a very good thing to work on ridding myself of pride. I have a hunch it will probably take me a while, given I've lived by it for a very long time, but that's OK. Rome wasn't built in a day, y'know!